half way

I get stunned when I read one of blog post about dream list. I don't even have a dream list. May be my "stuck feeling" is caused by this. It doesn't mean I don't have a dream. I just don't list it. And because I don't write it, sometimes I feel I am lost of my direction. My friend said dream list made us more organized about our goal. I think it also becomes a goal reminder for us. So, I try to list my dream for the next 5 years.

1. Get scholarship for my master degree
2. Get married
3. Running an online business (I am interested in Batik)
4. Going pilgrimage to Mecca with hubby
5. Write and publish a book (what book?)

What is yours?

Posing beside my car holding my green lunch box

Starting today, I decide to have breakfast before I go to work (in my home). Before this, I always brought 2 meals on my meal box, for breakfast and for lunch. Now, I am trying to optimize my time. What I mean if I have breakfast in my home, I will have time to blog half an our replacing my breakfast time in the office. Well actually, I am trying to follow the rule not to have breakfast in the office. What kind of rule is that? Well that's just my new rule he3x... In a private company, I am sure we won't be allowed to have breakfast in the office. But I wonder is blogging OK in the office? Anyway I just want to be better by practising my skill than just to have meal.

I hate my comfort zone,
make me feel stuck inside.

I get stressed lately just to think about our (me and my team) future and our goal in this company for this country.
I feel that they still do not know what responsibilities are.
I get tired to guide them because they are not "moving" if they are not being told to.

I want them to feel what is responsibility.
I want them to feel what is togetherness in the bad or good time.
I want them to feel they belong each other.
I want them to feel we can be relied on each other.
I want to coach them but am I capable of coaching if I, myself, need the guidance.
This process is very consuming my emotion.

But, what I have learned before:
No matter how big the problems are, the only way to survive is to stand still facing the problems. That way I am creating my own pride.